The Wall

First of all, I'm sorry I haven't been actively blogging in a few months. I haven't really had anything major to report and I don't always make time to blog if I don't have anything to say. My weight loss slowed way down after my last post and I hit a serious Plateau. The weight just wasn't coming off like it had. Perhaps it was the fact that it started getting colder and I cut out my daily walks with the dogs, or perhaps it was the holidays (which I know aren't over yet), or perhaps I was getting a little too comfortable with the weight watchers plan and maybe I wasn't tracking *everything* and that added up. I was still losing just at a very slow pace. Some weeks even remained the same weight. I was really getting frustrated with my non-big losses. In retrospect, blogging about it probably would have made me feel a little better.

Other things in my life remained the same as well- I'm still unemployed. I had two interviews for my dream job, and waited patiently to hear from them only to find out they gave the position to the other person. I was pretty heart broken, but still I'm moving on. There must be something better for me out there.

My mom remains annoying as well. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom, but everything with her is a competition and I didn't want my weight loss journey to be like that and it has become that to her. She keeps asking me how much weight I've lost and then decided she needs to lose weight (which she totally does not) and is doing it in the most unhealthy way ever-- major calorie restriction. And then she brags to me about how she weighs 125 lbs now or 120 lbs. I guess I'm happy for her(although I don't think she should lose anymore and she still does), but it's also annoying to hear about how she's losing weight and what she allows herself to eat or not eat and how her way is better.  I know her way may be working for her because she's not really eating much, but I also know that won't work for me. I'd be starving all the time and then binge and it just would be a big unhealthy mess. And it's not healthy to eat one clementine for lunch. The whole reason I didn't want to tell her I joined Weight Watchers was because of her whole *competition* issue that she has. She ALWAYS has had to be better or thinner than anyone else, not that I'm anywhere near 125lbs-believe me I wish I was. But for me, this isn't a competition, this is my life and I'm trying to get healthy and so I remain on Weight Watchers doing it the healthy and slow way.